Personal and Professional Stories of A Working Human
I’ve made the odd decision to become a phone sex operator. It’s not an odd decision because of the job itself, but an odd decision because I have a severe social anxiety mostly revolving around phones.
What made me do this? I have a heart problem (nondescript for now as I don’t recall the exact terminology although I think the acronym had an A in it at some point). My heart problem does not seem to be exacerbated by physical activity, however my doctor has suggested that I do a low cardio level work out for the time being. In May we will do some overnight tests and probably some further testing after that (because I’ve done this before) to see if there is another problem that can be solved.
Now, I don’t think this would hugely effect my business but when my doctor told me to take a week off I also had some legal issues and decided it’s best if I try doing some legal work for the time being. I may talk about the legal issues later, and I may go back to doing the sex bit later but for now I’m going to try doing the phone thing.
Back to my phobia. So I’ve always had a bit of social anxiety, which I used to control with alcohol. I sort of worked on that enough to be alright with it except for the phone aspect. I get panicky whenever people call me, especially when I know they are going to call me. So what am I doing? Well right now I’m freaked out that I’ll totally just have a panic attack doing a phone call, but I’m trying not to think about it because that just makes it worse.
I actually think one of the best ways to get over this phobia is to become a PSO. To do the phone sex, and get used to talking on the phone a lot, to strangers. But I’m still momentarily in a blind panic about the whole thing. If I had not had the weekend to think about it, and had just jumped into it, I’d probably be loving it right now. But because I had to change my phone over to a different service in order to do this, I can’t do it until Monday. Tomorrow.
So there is just a glimpse inside the overly thinking panicked world of me. I’m going to go look up how to get over this phobia and hopefully not pass out during my first call.